Down.. sad.

Today morning still quite fine one.. Until I realised alot of things.

My head's still spinning (damn I'm weak) but better than yesterday.

Realised lots of things, like how I'm the one always been ignored.. I duno if I'm realli that annoying anot... And somehow I feel that im a piece of crap. Pastor William Soh preaches about he being lousy last time then wat am I man? I'm nothing~! (adapted from Dick Lee).

Then I've been telling my fren, that some of my frenz now find me when they hav problems or they need my help. Then when I need them, heres their excuse "Hey, sorri, I'm busy now. Talk to u later." LATER? My God, I been sitting my arse on the chair for 3 hours and they disappeared after they' re done. When is ur later? May i noe? WHEN THE FACK IS UR LATER?
Thats not the worst case scenario. Some even closed my conversation window. (E-messenger.net tracks when user closes chat window) ignoring me and cease to return after tat.

So wat to do when I'm troubled or sad or juz needed someone to help or tok to? I cant do anything except let my thoughts run super wild on me and juz sit there and mediate on the stuffs somemore, which I noe I shouldnt be doing that. And ppl got a life mah, I dun hav. Damn me, I should get a life.

I noe, Im such an arse last time cuz I was still a childlish little brat. Basically juz yelled at anybody and being self centered. Wats more, I anyhow throw temper and fire.

I dun blame anyone but myself actually. However, I do not noe y I was like this last time. Argh.

The world doesnt revolve around me and me onli. Hell no. Im not some super character in a Final Fantasy game where everything onli happens around the main character.

Some of my frenz even kept things from me, they shared among themselves then after a few days, I noe lo, somemore its bery important stuff. I felt so #!#!)@!@!@ stupid and dumbo. I'm the last person to noe! Everyone kept it from me. Argh.

I think if I were to be gone and away, no one would care, seriously.

I'm tired already, so tired, that I dun wanna give a fack liao. Somemore, today is upset and feeling giddy, sickly.

Sorri if I offended anyone, I juz felt I needed to get this off my chest.

Somemore today PC hard disk something wrong again. Argh. Grrr. This time pulled out and plugged in still cannot. Sianzz.. Shit happens. Then juz felt some ppl r complete arses. Grr...

If onli I knew how to do a Real Final Atomic Buster.