Its been a while since I updated. Real tired and beat from Internship. Almost everything's fucked up during this month. This very last month of the Internship. Its ending soon. Just a few more days. Its going to be hard to walk past these few days. I'm counting it down. I never counted down the days left but now I did and its quite agonising.

As I said, alot of bad events had been happening during this month. Lots of it. If I really wrote everything down, it would be like writing a scroll that martial arts masters use. So I'm not really going it into details, maybe just brief pickings from here and there. I felt better now though.

The colleagues had started to change their attitude towards me. They started to nit-pick small stuffs about me. I admitted, I complained alot when they started to ask me do work that I was not realising that I actually just complained. Well, they now dropped all shit work like bombshells to me. Photocopying, running to this place and deliver something. Running awhile is interesting, especially to unknown places. Heck, I even went to Raffles Place today to deliver a cheque and I could not find the exact building. I'm like a boy lost inside a metropolis. There were lots of men clad in business suits and women wore high heels which made loud clanging noises when they hit the floor. The whole scene was like the Matrix except that I'm no Neo and there wasn't any woman in a red dress. It kind of freaked me out. Lots of office people there.

I felt really lousy about myself too, but I won't elaborate on it. Not going to complain anymore, because I realised I whined and complained alot. It just makes people see me as someone whos a weakling. Well, I might complain unknowlingly too so thats the point I had to get it off my attitude list.

I did mention days ago that I do not really love myself because of all my flaws and blunders. I don't really know... I just had to stop this mindset already.

Somehow I felt the world is real unfair, about why some guys are born taller and handsome while some are short and fat? Why some had to starve in other countries? Why? Basically a friend of mine told me to stop asking Whys and just say "Screw the fucking world". The world is like that. Its already corrupted. No one is expected to treat me nicely. Yea I got all this. But I think it would take some time before I really got the gist of it. So I had to tell myself, no more complaining. Had to.

Tomorrow's another shitty day at work. Serious. Almost all the work I had to do are always needed by the end of the day or else I could not depart myself from the office. Sheesh. Basically worked more than 10 hours without overtime pay. My friends were all doing Director and Flash stuffs while I had to photocopy documents. Oh well, what to do? Just let them exploit me... and I had to go Wisma Atria tomorrow again to retrieve my video recorder. Its bulky, its heavy. No more complaining. Zlich. Zero. Zip it.