Had a day off and a day whole wing off... during this time, which was much needed... I had been doing some serious thinking.. Thinking about whether I should live my life this way, the pathetic and negative way...

Of course, the model answer would be pretty obvious... but somehow, some way, I was too tired to intercept my life with a wind of change, probably too lazy or probably too stubborn, like a mule. Maybe I was just moderate happy to the way the things are now, maybe I should let God do His work, let everything fall into place. Maybe... Maybe... Why maybe? Why was I uncertain? What exactly? Has the negativity strucked me again? Was I afriad of committment to set my time to?

I suppose so...

In the same time, I am rather confused...

And what for?

I do not know.

I am a rather deep person... sometimes, whether I would become someone who I didn't even know at all...

I need to make the first step...

I need to make a decision...

So I have decided to heel my friend's advice, and step out of poverty, step out of insanity that drives me crazy AND also nowhere...

And thus, the spiritual warfare had started...


Watched V for Vendetta the day off and I must say, its one hell of a superb movie. It made me think for a while even after the show ended. And the scary thing is, it might come true. The Nazi-like are in England to set up a propaganda, controlling everything, the masses and the media. The people are listening to 'bullocks' and the dark lies.

My injured back since BMT had resurfaced due to heavy strains when I carried load in the stores. Another reason to downgrade? So far, I hadn't write an injury report yet, but the officers know, its there, its painful and its denying me of my job. Oh well... I would like a long term MC! Thank you.

The OOCs and I watched korean serial of 'Full House' all the way til past midnight just to catch the ending. And my oh my, I almost teared and we got so emotional... The ending was so sweet and perfect... Whats in korean serials that made it the next big thing? Or the big thing now? Or even a religion? I love korean serials now. It just made my heart softens...

I was reminded of a past group I was in, its called 'The Bachelor Club'. Years ago, it had alot of members, now 1 by 1, they found greener pastures, their loved ones and thus, this club is good as being demolished. Only me and 2 fellow friends left in the club. Heh. Remain strong? The so-called 'founder' is still single and urges us to find our true love... Tsk, if there even is one...